Alone, the mind plays tricks. Retrieving folders that should be collecting dust from the file cabinet of my mind. Pressing play on the VCR. Looping tragic memories that I still find beautiful. Hypothesizing impossibilities. “What ifs” are my worst enemies. Hopeless rationalization morphs into passing considerations. Transfixed on things lost and absent. Sorrow casting its […]
Earlier this week I got a text that shook me. “Lumi died.” I immediately went to Facebook only to have it confirmed by the beginnings of a flood of love and condolences by the many that she knew. Lumi had succumbed to the serious physical illnesses that began to plague her body in the last […]
Man. I thought I had some wildly vivid dreams during pregnancy. But they are nothing compared to these postpartum dreams. Dreams these days affect me physically- I can literally feel what’s happening during and after I wake. Currently my daughter is on a 2.5/3 hour sleep schedule through the night. So that means I am […]
As I sit here nursing my beautiful daughter, thousands of thoughts run through my head. I’ve been wanting to write but the last two weeks has been all about my little girl- her learning how to exist and me learning how to be a mom. So far there have been rough days and good days. […]
Diaries of a Former Meth Whore. 