Here are some thoughts that were running through my head during group today. I was working on a longer blog this morning, so more will come tonight. Hold me to it. December 13, 2019 Who thinks it is cool to die from meth? From addiction, self-sabotage, pressing the “destruction” button on life? Me. That’s a […]
It’s hard to write recently. I’ve been trapped in my head while observing this fucked up world around me.
Here’s an update for who cares.
I don’t even know if I still do.
It’s been a month since I’ve posted. Mainly because I had laser focus on making moves that I feverishly craved fairytale endings to. Lifelong fantasies of being the Princess… I’m far from it. Prince Charming does exist, but this unforgiving universe is the Ugly Bitch of an Evil Queen. She sees excitement frolicking with hope and […]
I have a question questions for all those fortunate souls that have “found themselves,” or those that can give the stale advice of “find yourself.” When did you know you were no longer lost? What mundane motherfucking second in your normal day did the thought hit you, “I am whole…”? I am so inquisitive to, […]
Soft morning winds caress my face and toss the curls poking out of a careless bun. I hit a thinly rolled morning blunt and stare at the crisp blue water whirling in Lumi’s in-ground pool that helped clean. I’ve been here since my mother yelled “Sayonara!” I know she was drunk. I know I’m a […]
I chainsmoked 80 cigarettes in less than 3 days. Stress consumed me. My mind began to crumble, and I was aware of every second. I buzzed around for a week unnoticed before crashing into my own brick wall of a skull. I slept for 22 hours because it was healthier than being awake and thinking. […]
At the corner of Regret Lane and Disaster Avenue. Look for the cozy red glow of Foolish Spirits; I’ll be sitting at the bar.
So I want to write about some positivity in my life. In the past few days, I’ve had an abundance of it. I just want to express how grateful I am for the experiences gifted towards me, via a beautiful soul I am more than lucky to hold friendship with. Let’s refresh from last week: […]
My heart jumps; realizations commence afterwards that it may be for nothing. But it is for something. Little comforts. Big lies. Half-assed truths. Huge egos begging for inflation. I’ll deflate. As I sit in the grass at a Dirty Heads and 311 concert, many things whirl in my head. Good things mostly. Like the fact […]
Days remain of a man. Dull sobs echo from a woman. Whispering palms beckon her name, as if to carry her thoughts to him. Dancing fairies flutter upon the woman’s shoulders; some with crowns, others with thorns that prick at a flick. Buzzing like horseflies, they won’t leave. And they’re arguing. She said she would. […]
